I see myself..?
Somtimes i'm happy sometimes i'm scared.
I never know what i'm really feeling.
I feel not, yet i do....
Who am I? I think to myself. Where am i going? The answers are there I just cant follow.
Something in me is frightened to move on. Yet I plea to do so. My soul feels trapped my mind feels lost. I scream out to the nights sky "WHAT'S GOING ON!!!!!!???????
Suddenly..
The rising sun shine's my face and warms my body..i'm relaxed.
Then i awake..it was just a dream only a dream I sigh in relief. I laugh in the mirror when I look at myself because I know who I am, I know why i'm here, and no i'm not like that.
Because I know Me and I know my place.
I'm Me.

Xspress- Joself

Sometimes I think about the past and what it could of been..
Cant stop thinking of what I did.
My first love n loss I so do miss.
My heart aches of my own fault. Why cant it heal?
I've moved on like everyone else..tried to forget..but life is strange I seem to be getting what I did back to me..
You reap what you sew is the saying...
I know now what I had really done. Playing with love for fun.
I'm sorry for what I did and for who I was i'm not the same anymore. Why doesn't she believe me?..
Been through it all..good, bad, odd, even, less, and more.
Now I only wish I could go back to the beginning when we first met..start allover and never have the regret of losing her when i had her.
But I cannot go back in time. I cant make her forgive. All I can say is sorry so so sorry for what I did. With a tear in my eye I finish this waiting for the day when I get my wish.

Dedicated to Diana.
Xspress - Joself